Seriously.. I cannot recall a time when there was no stress since this year started.
In the beginning of the year, there was my bro's wedding. And believe me, when you have mother like mine, it is gonna be stressful.
After that is the normal stress of study. O&G and Paeds.
And now, just when I am settling comfortably to my holiday/elective terms, intern application crops up. ARGH!!! What the hell.. how come there are so many graduates and so few places this year!! grrr... I need referees (smacking head for not getting close enough to any doctors during my rotations), do my pathetic CV, sigh... I don't know what to do.. hiks.. help!!

Phew...Don't you just love having holiday? I do..

It's my fourth day of bumming around doing nothing in the house except mundane stuff like cooking, doing laundry, grocery shopping, etc. I must say, and I know it is sad so you don't have to tell me, that besides to rest and to bum around or go on travel, holiday is when I catch up with my housework. Well, at least that's what I think after noticing the much cleaner and neater house as compared to the usual train-wrecked pigsty. I mean, Damn, I washed 4 full loads of laundry including bed sheets and blankets, and my laundry hamper still have some clothes still need to be washed! So yeah, when there is nothing planned and all I do is sleep for 15 hours a day, only to wake up to do all those things i mentioned, holiday is definitely a catch up time.

Oh and BTW, Adrian and I watched Iron Man on Monday!! It was AWESOME!!! I have a new fave actor besides Mark Wahlberg. It is none other than the Robert Downey Jr.!! He is so cool!! To think about it, I've liked him since Ally McBeal. That man just got more and more rugged and good looking as he gets older. yum!!

phew.. after blood sweat and tears, paeds rotation is finally over. I had the exam today. I reckon it went alrite, although now that i think bout it, i think i kinda screw up the clinical examination station. I was thrown off to see an adolescent patient there. I've been so used to examining children (a lot of the examination can be skipped), that when i saw an 'adult', i just don't know what to do. I was so all over the place, looked at the examiner a lots, asked the examiner a lot whether he would want me to continue with certain examinations like counting respi rate, doing tactile fremitus, etc. it was a mess. but i think i got the main thing right....i think?!

Ah well, i just hope that if it was screwed up, my performance in other stations will be able to cover it up to let me pass. sigh... I guess, can't expect too much out of a brain that only had maximum 4 hours sleep. Yupe.. i was so nervous that I couldn't sleep last nite. I was tossing and turning till 1 something, and then when i could finally feel myself dozing off, something jolted me awake, and I couldn't sleep anymore. I looked at the clock, it was 2.30.... tried to sleep, tossing, turning, tossing, turning, looked at the clock again, 3 am. Finally i decided, that's it. I can't just stay in bed. Maybe it's God's way of telling me to wake up and study. So i did. studied for 2 hours. It sorta boost my confidence a little and made me feel better. Before, I was realli nervous cz i just felt like i haven't done enough.

So I went back to sleep. Woke up at 7 am. so there you go. my boring life as a med student. sigh.. can't wait to start working!!

Seriously, I've never felt so trapped before in my life. This exam is like a prison for me. I haven't even watched Iron Man yet. Just gotta listen to ppl bragging about how awesome the movie is. sigh..How sucky is my life?! Can't wait for this to be over but at the same time, I don't want Friday to come. I'm not ready yet.. I'm gonna fail! ARGHHH........

Public apology to my dear for having to take my crap so often these 2 months. Damn I hate paeds!!

So here it comes. After 5 full weeks of lazying around, doing nothing, bringing sasha around in Brisbane (the only highlights of this whole rotation), and stressing over the most unnecessary thing when all I needed to do was just be myself and God will do the rest.

So I am currently in the 6th week of Paeds, and I have the knowledge of when i was in 1st week. How sad is that!!

And here is the countdown till exam day: 18 days. KILL ME NOW!!

sigh.. sha finally went back already and I am back to the dreadful routine of paeds rotation. sigh... Seeing her again reminded me of how much I miss my bestest friend. Haven't met her for more than a year. Oddly, there was no weird feeling at all. You know, the feeling when you just met somebody and you just don't know what to say? We just clicked back like we haven't been apart at all. Okie, i sounded damn gay but ah well.. =)

Anyway, here are the pictures of our ventures. Not gonna put too many pics as I'm sure everybody is gonna put up some pics as well..hehe... Miss u sha!! Muaxx...

YAY... sasha is coming this sunday!!muahahahaha.....

I hope I can free up some stuff from my time table. hiks.. paeds...hiks...

It was the holiday that I needed after the gruelling exams last week.. sigh.. Honestly, I don't know how I did for OSCE Gynae, and my feelings are usually right about this stuff. Right now, just hope and pray that the examiner had mercy on me.. hehehe... I dun wanna resit for exam!!! argh....

On happier note, the beach was realli good. I finally get to wear my bikini. A bit self-concious at first, but in the end, who cares, right! I was just busy checking if my boobs fall out of my bikini.hehehe... 'wardrobe malfunction'. kekekeke.... a bit surprised how comfortable i was in it though. I guess it's because everybody else is wearing it anyway, so what the hell..

Overall, the trip was a GREAT one. the beach was nice and there weren't as many ppl as I expected,the sun was out and surprisingly not too hot, the breeze was cool, the waves were crazy but fun. It was a perfect day..

After we were tired hanging out at the beach, we went to harbour town for some shopping.. i bought 3 shirts, which cost me only 15$ from just jeans. I'm wearing kids clothes btw..thank God for overgrown kids..hehehe.....

On another note, I dun wanna start paeds!! help!! hiks... i hate tuesday...